third time blogging today ?
ohwells.
just wna find somewhere to rant.
this is the best place, i guess.
...
i went blog surfing.
some were super sian..
some were super just normal..
some were emotional..
haii.
sighs.
rachel has left.
she has left for canada for good.
wonder when will she be back.
year 2006 or 2007, i guess.
haii.
tht's a super long time later.
it has only been TWO days after her departure and im already missing her dearly.
ahhhhh.
THREE more YEARS later then i would see her.
THREE more YEARS later then i would get to talk to her face to face.
THREE more YEARS ...
wonder how would it be like after THREE YEARS.
three years is a total of 1095 days.
how long is tht ?!
i regret not going to the airport to see her off on friday.
haii.
i dont knw why i didnt go.
i SHOULD have gone.
perhaps, i was being selfish ?
i dint wna face her leaving.
i dint wna see her backview disappear slowly.
i dint wna ...
two lonely nights when tears just kept streaming down my cheeks.
i dont wna cry.
i wna convince myself tht she is coming back soon.
i wna convince myself tht she is coming back SUPER soon but to no avail.
it is just hard to see a friend leave.
and not even seeing her off ?
DARN !
im such a shitholed friend !
the night before she left, we were talking on the phone.
during the talk, i must say tht i was feeling rather neutral ?
as in, i just took it as a super normal conversation with a friend.
but when we ended the conversation and said the last BYEBYE..
brahhhhh -
tears started to roll down my cheeks.
super loads.
haii.
i dint expect myself to cry, not a single bit.
now tht she is not in singapore, i guess, this is the time when our friendship would be put under a test.
seriously, NO ONE can replace her.
she is the ONLY one whom i can confide in loads.
she is the ONLY person whom i can tell every single thing to.
she is the ONLY person whom can tolerate my nonsense. =/
she asked me if i would forget her ?
HELL NO !
tht was the reply i gave to her.
i mean, HOW would you forget your friend ?
tht is so contradicting and hypocritical, i guess.
since you regard this very person as your friend, if you happen to forget him / her then i suggest you to just go and die.
i mean, as a friend, you and tht friend of yours definitely have been through some stuff.
be it thick or thin.
to forget you actually have such a friend before, tht is really unbelievable !
blahblahblah.
i wonder how is she doing now.
is she able to adapt to the freezing weather there and all ?
is she doing well ?
i wish her all the best.
loveyou rachel -
missyou rachel -
i'll NEVER forget you -
=)
i munched ;
at 11:11 PM